It hurts.

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Pennsylvania,

Your email at first made me smile last night - but then made me really, really sad. Tonight it made me angry. Why are writing such nice things to me? You don't want me!!!!! So don't confuse me or lead me on to think we might work. This is so hard already. Tonight before yoga I was full of that anger, and then in shavasana tears streamed down my face - and finally in the car i just cried. I miss you so much. It hurts. I just want us back. I want us back. I want you to love me. I want you to realize what you are letting go of. But I don't want you to want me when you can't have me. I am looking for a real relationship with someone who is ready for commitment. I want to find someone interested in evolving together as a couple - and still as individuals.

I love you.

What did you email mean? Likke "awww I think about all the good times we had - buddy." or "I think about you and smile because i love you." What?!?!

You are walking away from a pretty amazing person. And as a bonus she would love you and support you .

In some ways i jsut don't think you are ready for a real relationship. I don't know that you hvae faced your demons yet. HURRY UP and FACE THEM........maybe we will still have a chance.

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