oh my god, he is so beautiful. ugh. it kills me....this would be easier if he wasn't so handsome!
My new life without you feels a bit overwhelming today, well a lot overwhelming. I am forced to start all new habits without my favorite person.
California and the girls just went to visit an art studio - something I usually would love to do. But right now I just needed a little time to myself.
Sometimes I think in my effort to remain positive about everything I don't take the time to acknowledge the huge transition in my life. I went from spending the past six years of my life living a very urban life on the East Coast to suddenly being back here in small-town Wisconsin with three kids to look after. And while I am enjoying my new role here I also am missing my old life. I miss you - of course. But I also miss my old life: staying out late once a week - watching you play while sipping whiskey with the other girl-friends, spending time with Peanut Butter, swearing, having alone time, living in my own space - mostly having a kitchen all to myself. I guess that is part of the reason why I write you....to mourn the loss of you and the loss of that life.
I found my camera charger. I emailed your rock-star pictures tonight. I love you in that wig and those glasses. I think you look sexy. But then again I always think you look sexy.
I wish that we were crawling in bed together right now....we could cuddle and watch a netflix. You would say "scratch my back please", I would scratch it. Maybe you would rub my shoulders. Then I would chat your ear off until you fell asleep.
Love you so much,
Wisconsin
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