I want my next boy-friend to be a little more stable than you are

it's cold without you

Dear Pennsylvania,

I am writing you by candle-light tonight. Not sure if Chicago is being hit by the same snow storms as we are. Wind + snow = power outage, which means no white noise for me tonight. Wish I could use your droid and you were next to me in bed.

The weird part about a break-up is the random feelings that come up. I have been having lots of dream about the double ex boy-friend (college boy-friend). I have been waking up missing him instead of you. Which I is unexpected and distracts me for about a second from missing you so much. I guess lots of buried feelings regarding that break-up are resurfacing. I am actually going to see him next weekend, weather permitting. Did I tell you that? I wonder how that will be. It’s always odd seeing an ex. The last time I saw him was really great - I walked away from that lunch thinking that I pick really awesome boy-friends. Maybe someday we will be able to have lunch and I can walk away thinking the same thing. The thing is - I already know how amazing you are.

However I want my next boy-friend to be a little more stable than you are. Additionally I want him to be really cuddly, funny, handsome and super smart. Fun too. Honest. Loyal. Kind and compassionate. And scruffy with a beautiful jaw. Basically everything you are AND cuddly and stable.

I want to go to bed! But how is a girl to sleep without white noise? POWER IS ON (for now).

Love

Wisconsin