And you are really good at building fires. Plus you are crazy strong.

Please let this be true!

http://historiesofthingstocome.blogspot.com/2010/10/2012-apocalypse-postponed-due-to.html

Dear Pennsylvania,

Instead of blogging I ought to be writing my Peace Corps essay. My FIT transcript landed here today. But I just feeling like vegging out - writing you a bit, watching Arrested Development which always makes me giggle and then going to bed.

I am real nervous about me and the Peace Corps. You know I am not a big bug fan. That's a problem. I am not a mouse person. And I prefer flush toilets - though more recently I have begun exploring the great outdoors. I could adjust - I would have to. It would be good for me, but certainly challenging. Though I tend to adjust to most living situations....nothing can be much worse than living just shy of Chinatown in a SoHo dump....roaches, mice, toxic rat feces leaking up from the basement, no light, 4 people living in an apartment note even 400 square feet. HA!

Plus I still obsessed with which really does hold me back - if only emotionally. Beyond that I have a crazy confession. I am afraid of December 2012. It's a little embarrassing.....but I am. I don't want to be on some remote island far away from my friends and family. Rural, 3rd world countries would probably be either the first to go....or maybe the last. Either way it would be awfully scary to be alone. I know it's silly, and I know I would make friends and wouldn't really be alone. But it isn't the same. I am sure in time of crisis you would want to be with those closest to you. I really want to be with you, not just because I love you but because you would kick ass at surviving an Apocalypse. I just think of how you moved the uhaul trailer with a rock and a piece of wood. And you are really good at building fires. Plus you are crazy strong. Shit. I love you. Will you please come be my hero if the world starts to crumble - even if it is just to attempt to keep me calm? Please? I can cook and gather berries and sew leaves together with straw and the needles from our survival kit.

Enough scary talk. I have to wake up tomorrow for my all-day sit. Six hours of meditation with a break for vegetarian lunch (I am bringing roast vegetable hummus). I can barely sit through my Monday night's 20 minutes. It will be good for me....hopefully I will have an epiphany or leave understanding the purpose of life....I am not holding my breath.

Love,

Wisconsin