yup, true.
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I have more to say - I just thought that this next stuff was worthy of its own post.
So I was thinking today about why we didn't work. Obviously I know "you aren't attracted to me, you are not in love with me, you have grown less and less attracted to me over time". Yup, that I got down. But why?
Today I was thinking about how independent I am when I am single. I don't mind being single. I seem to function better and have a little more focus than usual. Right now for instance I think about all the things I am doing: yoga, Zen practice, meditation, yoga workshops, trips to Madison etc. But that independence all falls apart when I am in a relationship. Why? Because I want to spend every waking moment with my boy-friend. In one word: pathetic. That is probably a HUGE reason why you weren't attracted to me.
I equate love with time. Plus it really was always my preference to hang out with you. I love you. I guess I always felt like if I didn't make time for us - then you wouldn't. I didn't ever feel like you really wanted to be with me, I guess you didn't. Hence the break-up.
I guess I got addicted to you. I am Pennsylvania addict.
Wanted to say more - but had more fun chatting with P.B. on gchat. Now I am too tired to write.
Love,
Wisco.
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