I feel like an over-worked, bitter, stay-at-home mom today.

Awww, New York I miss you!

(beautiful photograph by my very own talented brother!)

Dear Pennsylvania,

I feel like an over-worked, bitter, stat-at-home mom today. I feel like all I do is clean up messes and deal with attitudes. The kids are wonderful, but not always easy - and they have really, really messy habits. And, yes dear, I know I can be messy. But that was my studio - and studios are supposed to be a mess :) I have so much more appreciation for moms now that I am playing that role. It's tough stuff. It can be really frustrating. I think it would be easier with my own kids because I would have a different rule set and organization plan from the beginning. Still. Really makes you realize that raising kids is really hard. Maybe not little kids, they are fun. But middle-school, that's no picnic. AND furthermore, it would be really hard to be a single parent. So my heart goes out to Uncle and all the single parents out there.

I miss my old life today, more than you. So much so I spent way too much money on wine, cheese and blueberries today. I just need a tasted of my old life. It was hard to find though. I am so used to being able to run across the street and find all my favorite healthy treats at my deli! I was desperately looking for Plugra butter, but had no luck at two grocery stores. Then I had to schlep all the way across town to find lavender. I wish they had a Whole Foods here, then life would feel a little more normal. I miss city living. I miss NYC and Philly too.

I think it is snowing more on the East Coast. I always wish I was with you when it snows. Nothing like being snowed in with your favorite person. I bet you are reading and practicing and thinking and napping. That's what you seem to do best anyway.

I wonder what percent of you wants to get back together? 1% or 16%? I feel like there is a little speckle of you that definitely wants me back - maybe even a medium size mole's worth.

Okay I am going to hit the hay. I took a yoga class tonight that felt more like boot camp. I didn't really like the tone - but I bet I will sleep hard tonight.

Love you,

Wisconsin

PS

I am starting the master cleanse in 5 days! I am excited.....I need a re-set. It will be good for me physically - I have been eating too much dairy since moving here, drinking hormone infested milk, ugh. Gross. Plus I figure it will be good for me emotionally. I can cleanse myself of you :) Good-bye to you Pennsylvania - I will shit you out with my salt-water flush! If only it were that easy.