I still love you even though you make me cry.

Right back where I started. Nothing has changed.

Here is the link to my first post....see for yourself:

http://ileftmyheartinpennsylvania.blogspot.com/2010/12/read-this-first-my-story.html

(this image from: http://fromme-toyou.tumblr.com/post/2797938831/statuesque)

Dear Pennsylvania,

I am exhausted. Nothing has changed. You aren't in love with me. And you aren't sure what you are looking for in a relationship - in a marriage. You aren't attracted to me - and how could we even explore that with 1,000 miles between us? How could we explore that without putting me heart and self worth on the line? We can't. So we aren't.

I am strong enough to walk away. Not without tears. We talked for 2 and half hours and despite the same conclusion I still enjoyed our conversation, I still would rather cry to you than anyone else. You still make me laugh - we are still the best of friends. I suppose that is why all of this is so hard. I suppose that is why both of us can't fully let go. Because what we do share is really amazing.

But I can't wait around for you to figure yourself out - not at the expense of my self-worth.

I still love you even though you make me cry.

Love,

Wiscosin