READ THIS FIRST. MY STORY.

from the film, romeo & juliet

This is a blog for anyone going through a break-up. It's my on-line catharsis comprised mostly of my nightly unsent emails to my ex-boy-friend; often pathetic, sometimes angry, mostly just heartbroken but always honest.

"Pennsylvania" and I were together for only a year, but he is certainly one of the great loves of my life. We met at my cousin's wedding in the actual state of Pennsylvania. I was a bridesmaid - he was playing up-right bass. I fell for him immediately. I was only in town for the wedding but ended up extending my time there just to be with him. I was absolutely smitten. I went back to Wisconsin and before you know it I was driving East and followed my heart to Pennsylvania.

Pennsylvania as we will call him, is incredibly handsome, beyond a genius, one of the funniest people I know and also happens to be one of my best friends. (Can you tell I am still in love with him?) We had a year full of laughter, love and fun.

We were just about to move in together when everything fell apart. This was November 4th. He told me he wasn't in love with me - that he has become less and less attracted to me over time. Ouch. INSERT knife through heart.....again....again....again.

My apartment was already sublet so I had to make a decision - do I stay in Pennsylvania, do I move back to NYC where I lived for five years post college, do I move to San Francisco and start over? Or do I go back home to Wisconsin and help out my Uncle and his family.....

I chose family. So here I am as a 29 year old single woman, living in Wisconsin - but my heart is in Pennsylvania. Here are the chronicles of my break-up.