Someday I want you to fall in love, but will you wait for me to go first?
Well the weekend is here. I am adjusting to the idea of truly letting you go. It's much easier not talking - not sending emails back and forth. I have always been a cold turkey kind of a girl anyway. Tomorrow I am going to a coffee house and writing essays for the Peace Corps and the Food Corps. I don't know if I will actually do any of them. We will see. But in any case I want to open doors.
I should probably also do some research on green design firms and flower shops. I am thinking that a move to the West Coast would do me some good for awhile. Try that side of the country for a bit. I wish that it was warmer here with a bit more diversity. I like being close to my family. I love the three kids so much. It will be hard to move, if and when I move.
I hope I really do find love someday. I hope he is a lot like you. I hope he has the same value system and I hope we live a beautiful, unconventional life together. I need to find an intellectual-hippy.
Anyway, I am going to watch Arrested Development now.
I hope you have a beautiful weekend. And I hope that you are happy. I mean that. I think this is the way it should be. You and me - I guess we aren't meant for each other. It hurts me to say it....a lot (sigh). But I love you enough to want you be be in love, even if it isn't me.....wait awhile please.
Love,
Wisconsin
PS
I still wish it was me.
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