This sucks.....not just for me.

NOTE: This is his response to this morning's email. Now I feel like crying. Break-ups suck.....it's been two and half months. Some days I feel like my heart will forever be broken.

PENNSYLVANIA:

i know sorry. i couldn't help it. i don't really have anyone else to talk to...

WISCONSIN:

I am sorry dear. I want to be that person for you - so desperately - but it is partly because I am in love with you. And until I am not in love with you I don't know that I can be that person. I am sorry too. This sucks.....not just for me.

PENNSYLVANIA:

no worries. i totally get it. i was hestitant to say anything for all of the above reasons. i am fully aware. i was really just expressing. next time i will try your method of writing and not sending if it comes up again. sorry to prod your heart....

hope i didn't ruin your day

WISCONSIN:

you didn't ruin my day. my heart is already broken. i just feel like in the past week or so you have been so misleading

sometimes i feel like screaming at you - getting angry "what the fuck are you doing.....do you love me or not - fucking choose one!!!!!!" but i don't - because i don't even want the answer. i don't want to hurt all over again.