Here is this morning's blog post - just so you understand how delusional i am.

NOTE: And then I emailed him this morning's post along with this note. Maybe he will get the point now. [sigh]

Here is this morning's blog post - just so you understand how delusional i am. maybe it will help you to understand why it is hard for me to be friends - how some of your emails and things you have said feed me hope that i over-analyze in an optimistic way because I still love you. i know it's pathetic. but right now, that's where i am at. i am not at all blaming you - only myself.