I thought I was ready for a romantic comedy all by myself.

I know I have posted this before. But it just feels how I feel.

It hurts instead.

Dear Pennsylvania,

I thought I was ready for a romantic comedy all by myself. I think I was pushing it. I made it all the way through the credits and then there were 15 tears.

1st - Because I miss you.

2nd - Because we never really had a love story - what is a love story without the love?

3rd - Because I want love so badly.

4th - Because I miss you some more.

5th - Because I am afraid it just isn't going to happen for me.

6th - Because I laughed so much when I was with you.

7th - Because I am scared I don't love myself enough to be loved.

8th - Because life happens in unexpected ways.

9th - Because I still love you.

10th - Because you could just be my friend and it wouldn't hurt.

11th - Because the movie ended happy - unexpectedly.

12th - Because I still want to believe in love.

13th - Because I am alone again. And I know that's not bad, just alone.

14th - Because maybe love doesn't really exist.

15th - Because all I really ever wanted was love. And I thought I found that with you.

Love,

Wisconsin